I need to Get it Out of My Head

I really need to get this out of my head.... right now I hate everybody. I hate myself for getting into nasty fights when I know nobody’s listening to me. I hate my sister because all she is, is trouble. She already messed up my life too much to be ignored. She thinks she is old enough to meddle with my life. She absolutely thinks (for she is taller than me) she can rule my life. & she always ignores the fact that she is 6 for crying out loud 6 years younger tan me. & damn it’s all because of her stupid ego center head that I can not get connected from home!
I’m mad at my mother who thinks that I need to keep my privileges from my sister so she won’t think they prefer me! & the funny point is that it’s she who always gets what she wants not me. I’m sick of being treated like I have the responsibility of other’s actions. I’m sick of my parents telling me when to go home & where to go. I’m fed up with the fact that my dad can not see that his behavior had made my sister so blunt.
I really don’t think that I can much more of it. I really need some air to breathe. I’m not 16 for God's sake. I don’t understand these stupid limits I’m living with.
I need a job & I need to get away from the whole family for a while or forever that doesn’t mater now to me. I never thought I would find myself here.... nothing seems right. Damn I had been drifting away from my family for the past 6 months I barely spoke to my father. Rarely listened to my mom & the funny point is they never asked what was wrong! They didn’t even seem to notice. Sometimes I wonder what will happen when I die one day not far from now. They will have a big funeral & my mm will cry a lot & my dad will look dull for a while both few months later they wont even remember my name. & my sister will have everything she wants....
I hate them! No I don’t! I really don’t have any feelings toward them & that’s worst than what it seems. I could care less if they feel alright or not. It doesn’t bother me what they think about anything anymore; they are most likely wrong anyhow. Why should I care?